It is now over 2 years from Niamh died and the shock of finding her and realising she had suicidal thoughts has thawed due to meeting other families bereaved through suicide and being part of implementing the strategy. Her 18th Birthday was celebrated on 2nd Feburary 2008 but she was not here with us. On this day we remembered her birth and life and not the way she died. The thaw  however means the pain of not having her around, not being able to talk to her physically, not being able to hear her laugh, joke, sing, dance, watch her play football or continually brush her hair (She was particular about how her hair would look) is unbearable. I miss her so much and every morning I wake up hoping to see her and pray that this was a dream.

Unfortunately this is real and if anyone is suicidal or depressed and thinks that life is not worth living PLEASE REMEMBER that even though your thoughts won’t allow you to think you are worthy and that no one cares about you PLEASE REMEMBER someone does love you and their heart will be as broken as mine if you don’t talk or seek help PLEASE REMEMBER to SEEK HELP. No one will judge you and you can get through this bad time with proper help. TALK to a friend go to your GP or use the website forum.

As a broken hearted mother I would ask all who are feeling low or suicidal to seek help now.